Depression sets in...

I feel like everything is falling apart and landing on me. From the moment I woke up in the morning to now, the day has gotten progressively worse. I'm broke, my homework is piling up, and I missed a test today. And I have to get up at four in the morning tomorrow to start a new shitty day. I haven't seen Diana all day. After school she spent the day with one of her friends. When she called this evening she had to register for next semester's classes. She called Andrew to find out which teachers are the best and he wanted to talk to her. Meanwhile I sat at home waiting for her to come over, thinking about how much I need her right now. She calls and tells me she's going to Andrew's so they can talk. She told me she would call me later to invite me to join her. She wasn't there when I needed her the most. So that made me feel better. It's not her fault. I'm not trying to say that. She's not a mind reader and I know she needs some time to herself. I just really needed her to comfort me and she wasn't there. I'm debating whether or not I want to go to Andrew's when she calls. Part of me wants to go just to see her. But another part of me wants to not see her just to hurt her. I don't like that part of me. Judge me if you must. Those are my honest feelings.