What the hell am I doing?

I haven't been to class in almost two weeks. I'm thinking about
getting stoned tonight. I got drunk the night before last. I didn't go
to work yesterday. I will go to class tonight. I will go to work
tomorrow. I will go to class from now on. I will do my homework. I
will study for tests. I will cut down on smoking, drinking, and pot.
Don't get me wrong, I really haven't been drinking and smoking pot
that much. But maybe I should stop completely. Diana tries to help and
she does. She tries to keep me from drinking so much I get sick. But
sometimes I don't listen.

My love for Diana grows everyday. I want to be with her forever. We're
getting bad at sleeping alone. Last night we were going to sleep
alone, but plans changed. I get such good sleep with her. Restful and
peaceful sleep. I hope my paradise doesn't crumble at the end of this
semester. I hope I can pull my head out of my ass long enough to pass
my classes. Well, I work well under pressure and it wouldn't be the
first time I had to create a miracle...